A giant somersault from the top of a
rickety dresser. The expanse of a childhood caught away in the air
of a single moment, frozen. Snow falls heavily outdoors, freezing to
the bottom of the windows; no school. An imaginary crowd of
thousands surround the queen sized bed that acts as our ring. I can
hear them cheering as I float through air. The smell of pancakes and
syrup filters down the hallway and through the door. My brother lays
on the bed, bracing himself for impact in a pair of hand-me-down
pajamas that are a little too tight. As I spin in the air, the bed
floating into view I am unaware that moments like these don't linger.
They are not frozen for all time. Circumstances change, people
change. And I would not always be the big brother that I once was,
only pretending to hit in a make believe wrestling match. Trust is
lost far more easily than it is gained, and I've lost more than my
share. Yet rebuild it I must. You only get one family, and as I
fall to the bed, time unfrozen, I crush mine beneath a massive,
flying elbow drop. My mother hollers unconvincingly down the hall to
“cut it out and come eat.” We rush to the kitchen, warm in our
home on a snow day.
This is a powerful mix of big and little--wise of you to see the importance of pancakes and to see equally the reverberations in life of a wrestling move.
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